I want to be a better person.
But it is hard when you demand to be in my life.
I want to walk on clouds and be light,
but your dark cloud inserts itself.
I do what I can,
create space between the land and sea.
Somehow your waves still crash on my shore
drowning, breaking me.
I want to be who I know I am.
I want to sparkle and float within the sky.
But there you are,
once again,
a blind spot, fleck of dust in my eye.
The darkness brought within me,
the storm I create.
Is not who I want to be, I do not want to be fueled by hate.
But how do I separate myself,
when you stick to my side?
How do you play hide and seek, when you aren't allowed to hide?
