Where is she -
the girl I once was.
Did I give her away as I opened up?
Sharing everything, every thought;
she was selfish.
Where did she go?
Did I love too much-
until she learned to break?
I remember alone,
I remember happy - self-sufficient.
Was that so bad?
The lost child, the lonely child
Never the scared child.
Where is she?
If I try hard enough will I find she's still in me?
Do I want to find her?
Become her again?
Am I happy with who I am now?
Who I might become?
But where is she?
Wednesday, October 4, 2017
A Letter to Me - A Letter to You
Strength.
We work so hard - pump iron, run for miles, swim until our skin is blue, all in the name of becoming stronger.
We fall in love, we create friendships, we put ourselves out there and are rejected constantly; all because we know "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger."
Here's a secret about strength - it never goes away. When we are young we are strong. Some of us develop this strength sooner than others, but we fall and we rise and we fall again, each time learning to be faster when we get back up.
This strength does not leave. You are always strong, but sometimes you're scared to be strong. Sometimes it is easier to say, "I can't do this, I'm not strong enough" and the world will admit you are weak. You can lean on the people around you until you find your strength again. And this is good.
The problem is when you forget that you are always strong. The problem is when you believe your strength only comes from the people around you. This is when you are weak.
You are weakest when you only know yourself through others. You are weakest when you can only be if the people around you create you. You are weakest when you cease to exist without people. You carry a strength inside you always - you are weakest when you forget this.
But this is hard to remember. It's easier to lean on others than to admit you can stand alone. But you have to. If you can't stand by yourself then there is no reason to stand at all. You have to build your own strength, push yourself to do the extra mile, a few more minutes, to stand back up. And you can do it.
It's hard. Nothing is harder than believing. But you can do it - you will do it. Force yourself to forget about the snooze button, to put down the phone, to smile at a stranger. Force yourself until it is habit. Find your strength and force it to grow. Then maybe, one day, another person will lean on you and you can support them until they too realize it's time to find their strength again. Grow and share what you have done, how you've learned. Grow until the whole world is strong.
We work so hard - pump iron, run for miles, swim until our skin is blue, all in the name of becoming stronger.
We fall in love, we create friendships, we put ourselves out there and are rejected constantly; all because we know "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger."
Here's a secret about strength - it never goes away. When we are young we are strong. Some of us develop this strength sooner than others, but we fall and we rise and we fall again, each time learning to be faster when we get back up.
This strength does not leave. You are always strong, but sometimes you're scared to be strong. Sometimes it is easier to say, "I can't do this, I'm not strong enough" and the world will admit you are weak. You can lean on the people around you until you find your strength again. And this is good.
The problem is when you forget that you are always strong. The problem is when you believe your strength only comes from the people around you. This is when you are weak.
You are weakest when you only know yourself through others. You are weakest when you can only be if the people around you create you. You are weakest when you cease to exist without people. You carry a strength inside you always - you are weakest when you forget this.
But this is hard to remember. It's easier to lean on others than to admit you can stand alone. But you have to. If you can't stand by yourself then there is no reason to stand at all. You have to build your own strength, push yourself to do the extra mile, a few more minutes, to stand back up. And you can do it.
It's hard. Nothing is harder than believing. But you can do it - you will do it. Force yourself to forget about the snooze button, to put down the phone, to smile at a stranger. Force yourself until it is habit. Find your strength and force it to grow. Then maybe, one day, another person will lean on you and you can support them until they too realize it's time to find their strength again. Grow and share what you have done, how you've learned. Grow until the whole world is strong.
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