Someday

 

Someday I’ll walk alone.

Someday there is no one else home.

Someday I have to say goodbye,

Someday you’ll teach me to cry.

Someday you will rest.

Someday I’ll fight to not forget.

Someday I’ll hold on too tight,

Someday I wish you had had more fight.

Someday I’m glad you’re finally in peace

Someday I break piece by piece.

Someday I find joy in your words

Someday I am angry and hurt.

Someday and everyday I try to go on.

Someday and everyday, I’m not that strong.

Someday and everyday, tomorrow and yesterday,

I remind myself, someday is today.

There

 

I saw it today.

The way death shone from your skin.

The glow of pain and loss highlighting your cheeks,

I saw it there among the sweat.

How quickly did this happen?

And I wasn’t there to warn you.

I wasn’t there to hold you back

Say it’s okay if you need to go.

I wasn’t there to reassure or to plead.

Are you okay?

Were you okay when I was missing?

Did you hear my prayers?

Did you feel my tears?

My longing call?

Can you see the feathers I sprouted to send my love to you?

I was there.

I was there when you didn’t see me

I was there when you couldn’t say my name

I am there with you now when the day is dark and the darkness is unknown.

I am there.

And I am trying.