There

 

I saw it today.

The way death shone from your skin.

The glow of pain and loss highlighting your cheeks,

I saw it there among the sweat.

How quickly did this happen?

And I wasn’t there to warn you.

I wasn’t there to hold you back

Say it’s okay if you need to go.

I wasn’t there to reassure or to plead.

Are you okay?

Were you okay when I was missing?

Did you hear my prayers?

Did you feel my tears?

My longing call?

Can you see the feathers I sprouted to send my love to you?

I was there.

I was there when you didn’t see me

I was there when you couldn’t say my name

I am there with you now when the day is dark and the darkness is unknown.

I am there.

And I am trying.